In a Silent Corner of My Mind.

I often wonder whether we are to blame ourselves for all the problems that come our way or our stars? Is it the lack of luck or just pure dedication and the courage to dream and not stop till you get somewhere.
What defines a man's struggle? Whether the constant need to win yet losing or seeing the less deserving get everything in life?
I can't fathom what leads a man to be so negative that he forgets what an amazing person he is. Phoenix rises from the ashes, lotuses grow in muck, people lose their limbs and their lives to deadly diseases while we crib over just a few speed breakers life sets out on our path. I don't want to see people quit just because they have been fighting for too long. What if one more try was their last try?
What if one last attempt got someone their dream job and what if live has spun a different plan for them all together?
Somewhere along the road to achieve something in life, people forget to live in their present, work hard right now rather that worrying their heads off about the future. Nothing is certain and that's the truth. I cannot begin to imagine as to what is that one thought that drives a person to quit, completely lose hope. Lose their mind in a manner that they lose their smile, their appetite to enjoy anything at all, being absolutely silent, so much that the slightest sound seems like a hammer weighing down on their heads. The constant voice at the back of their heads licking their hidden wounds and insecurities.
I think of it like a game, where you are put under pressure to do well. Think of a strategy to survive, succeed and excel. Life is never going to be easy. We should start by not comparing our lives with that of others. Everyone has their own circumstances. While some may have too much too soon, others may have to wait it out. Point is, don't stop looking forward to something. Be is whatsoever. Every moment, incident, person, teach us something. The smallest of gestures can have life changing effects. Be happy for what you have but, never stop pushing yourself a little more. Try to add to yourself, make yourself a little better than you were yesterday. Be thankful for what you have, many of them aren't even that lucky.
Point being guys, we need to stop blaming someone or something else. The answers to all our questions lie within us. Don't give up just yet, we all are wonders buried with treasures we don't even try to find a map to.
Pause!Think... Contemplate ...
Keep dreaming, work hard, never give up ... Universe is in motion to churn out the best for you ...
Fight for it if need be but, remember to smile, focus and move forward.

Some Love ...

I often debated whether my heart was right,
Or was I just a chaos finding myself,
In the turbulence plaguing my mind,
I often forgot the challenge that it is.

I could not love like the old times,
Pieces of me scattered all over,
It was not about the sweet nothings anymore,
I needed what could stir my soul.

I was looking to sit side by side,
Communicating even if we spoke little,
To know the darkest fears,
To understand what inspires.

I don't want to say I Love Yous,
I want to go on adventures,
Discover what no one knows about us,
Not like the ordinary stories of love.

What drives us towards the future,
The aspirations we had since childhood,
The failures and successes,
Which made me us who we are.

What keeps us up at night,
What resides in the deepest rooms of our minds,
The things that drive us insane,
Also the ones which make us laugh.

I want to know about every iota of your being,
And I want you to reside in every breath I take,
I want to live like what we all talk about,
Two bodies and one soul.

Can we be that and not superficial love?
Can we live like we want to be alive?
Make every bit of every second?
Not just two people wanting companionship because we are afraid of being alone.

Ramblings

I felt the need to discover,
To go out on my own,
Feel the harsh winds,
Settle on the go.

I isn't the best I want,
According to the wagging mouths,
Its the satisfaction of my mind,
Eventually, its my life.

I do want to explore,
The unearthed corners of my soul,
Give my everything to,
What I am capable to do.

Feels a little lonely,
Inspiration run quite low,
I suppose its the waves in life,
Will face these tides forever more.

I had a faith so strong,
In what I can be,
Against the stereotypical notions,
Of life, career and such.

Lets just take a break,
Walk inside ourselves,
Into the depths of the mind,
The unexplored mine.

I go with the gut,
I feel its right,
Is it wrong that I bother,
About what world defines.

I move, I move with gutso,
A flair in my walk,
Wind in  my hair,
My time is here.

The Lust of The Night

Tonight I stand, 
Beneath the starlight heaven,
The silver moonlight,
netted on the waters.

Each breath as I take,
The bliss of the moment flows through me,
As I close my eyes,
I feel swept off my feet.

The tender lips are numb,
As the breeze kisses them,
The silk woven hair dance,
As the breeze plays.

I twitch in the night so serene,
As a message the wind whispers,
In the mystic cold night,
Which sends through me a silent shiver.

Retake

Many times when you revisit a place, you live the vibes in a new way each time.
A girl revisited the city where she spent three years of her college life. All the streets had a memory written on them; all the words spoken, the feelings felt. The wreckless nights and the silent thoughts. The magic still remained in the air  like perfume hanging off of a cloudy thread.

She met the people she once hung out with. The familiar faces brought back ocean deep memories. The good and the bad. It wasnt only the journey with the place but, the journey with people. The ones who came and went and those who remained. She saw the flashback to the start of the three years and it played like a movie right before her eyes. Each vivid experience enhancing her visit back to perhaps, her most favourite city.

She went in a car ride with her friends. On the way, while the cold winds whipped through hair, she felt like a visitor, to experience and capture to what was a flashback to all  that she had done and being there to experience it over again. It was a Deja Vu and felt her veins pump up with an excitement she had never felt before.Then she saw the power couple. The boy at the wheels and his girl next to him. A carefree symphony with a whiff of craziness. She enjoyed her music swaying her hand in the breeze. Right there, that music, those people did a magic of a kind.

The night unfolded into spilled secrets and real identities. It was an experience where she witnessed the sides of individuals when they were the most uninhibited and loud mouthed. It amused her to see the scenario pan out before her eyes. The twists in the night and switching sides. It was fascinating how people's demeanor changes and in the flow, how they tend to say their thoughts out loud.

She thought about it all after the night had ended and she only thought one thing that insecurities overflow, there is competition amongst people's thoughts process, there wants and needs. There is shift in curve in the personalities of people.  Then again there is also true brotherhood and lots of love.

The people she met, all taught her one thing; Everyone's life is a journey with favourable and unfavourable circumstances. In this city, everyone knew everyone. They were all connected with an infinite rope. It was made with the smallest and biggest moments of the three years there.

With the chill of dawn, she fell into a deep sleep. She was happy to be back. 

New Dimensions ..

Halfway through that half smile,
I realised how half of my heart,
Now felt complete,
All I needed was that day,
That ride through the cold winds,
Shiver down my spine,
While I was whisked away into the night,
The eyes that gleamed,
I looked a little deeper and could see,
Intelligenc, naughtiness and life,
A spirit of a different kind,
When words which I read,
On the outside did surprise,
Although, in my heart I always knew,
What was brewing right before me,
A voice which rings in your head,
Even long after you've heard it,
Each time you recall it,
There's a vibe of passion to it,
So much of pure beauty,
Strummed through those strings,
It was like a religion of a parallel world,
Which seemed so self made and giving,
It was the kind of connection,
The kind we dint speak out,
Where everyday was beautiful,
If we met and laughed it out,
The condescending statements,
When left those still childlike lips,
It didnt hurt but, refreshing,
The cheek which you wanted to hate,
But, ending up laughing and only loving,
Through the music around,
The eyes spoke what nothing else could,
When the time stopped,
But, it sure wasnt love,
It was a respect, a mutual understanding,
It left me confused and happy,
Crusading through the roads,
Ending up in new places,
Talking and sharing,
It all of a sudden felt new,
Things happened and done,
They were not spoken about,
They weren't erased either,
Its the comfort of being yourself,
Not being judged,
It wasn't about regret,
Just in the moment,
Small gestures here and there,
Seemed so very nice,
When you can shout,
Cry like the world's ended,
Throw tantrums and still be tolerated,
If nothing comes out of,
What you really wanted,
Just grab a beer and,
Take everything in a new direction,
Those are the small little things,
That make the day,
Through the mirage of the world,
Only and only those moments,
Which are unadulterated and from the heart,
Seem and make you feel perfect.

Walking Friendship's Miles ..

Work at college has just ended,
I walked to the famous hangout,
Called up the one person,
I most wanted to see and hear out,
I dialled the number and waited a bit,
Finally, the call was picked,
My friend has just finished the gym,
Let me take a bath, ill be there in a bit,
I waited as I spoke to a few people,
In anticipation of my friend,
The arrival brought a smile on my face,
Together we walked into the night's face,
Speaking of days we had missed out on,
Laughing at the stupidity we all had done,
Discussing the good and bad of life,
About editing people out of my life,
My friend said, it still bothered me,
I have changed in a way I retorted,
Believe me, I know you too well,
I said, maybe we have to rewind and refresh,
We then laughed light heartedly,
Hand in hand we walked a little silently,
Distance hardly seemed a hinderance,
We walked without realising the time,
Words have an easy flow,
No pretence plays the time,
After long did we simply let go,
Not caring who'd come and go,
Relishing the moment that was there,
Making friendship's silent vows,
In our hearts we know it for sure,
We will be there for each other through and through,
After the these three years,
After all the world's fight,
We'd still hold on whats dear,
For each other we'll always be here.

 

Note:- My dear friend,
Pune is a better place with you here. It is bearable and honestly, I do not have any reason to complain any more. You mean a lot to me and your friendship, I hold it close to my heart. I promise to always be there for you, no matter what.

Much Love