Conflicting Yet At Peace

Am living in a place,
where my heart doesnt want to be,
waking up every morning,
wishing,it was only a dream.
I still go to the place,
where am supposed to be,
My heart calls for more,
A wait,it has to be.
I meet the people who make me happy,
I walk along wishing something would be different,
The crowd is all around me,
Yet,it feels so alone,
Meet the right people,they say,
how do I figure out,they forgot to tell,
Dont trust just anyone,they say,
Whom to trust,they forgot to say,
I sit watching everyone pass by,
some wait and say a hi,
I have forgotten what it feels like,
to be comfortable and adjust,
its a long gone feeling,
treasuring a few cherished moments,
a smile that was swept off,
the tears that kept rolling down,
the heart that kept yearning,
I knew,I believed,
I looked and I could see,
the dreams that I wanted to be,
something beyond surreal,
something that only thoughts can be,
hold me,take me away,
speak to me and let me know,
you are and will be,
right here where you are meant to be,
I then opened my eyes,
woke up from my sleep,
smiling to myself knowingly,
a dream that soon will be a reality.