Conflicting Yet At Peace

Am living in a place,
where my heart doesnt want to be,
waking up every morning,
wishing,it was only a dream.
I still go to the place,
where am supposed to be,
My heart calls for more,
A wait,it has to be.
I meet the people who make me happy,
I walk along wishing something would be different,
The crowd is all around me,
Yet,it feels so alone,
Meet the right people,they say,
how do I figure out,they forgot to tell,
Dont trust just anyone,they say,
Whom to trust,they forgot to say,
I sit watching everyone pass by,
some wait and say a hi,
I have forgotten what it feels like,
to be comfortable and adjust,
its a long gone feeling,
treasuring a few cherished moments,
a smile that was swept off,
the tears that kept rolling down,
the heart that kept yearning,
I knew,I believed,
I looked and I could see,
the dreams that I wanted to be,
something beyond surreal,
something that only thoughts can be,
hold me,take me away,
speak to me and let me know,
you are and will be,
right here where you are meant to be,
I then opened my eyes,
woke up from my sleep,
smiling to myself knowingly,
a dream that soon will be a reality.

An emotionful and emotionless person

dont make life an illusion

At the end of the time,
all thats ever going to be there,
all that you can ever call yours,
Is the solitude and self love,
the tides of time makes you meet,
the scenes of life will get you to a point,
where you will call someone yours,
DONT be dellusioned,
pause and give it a thought,
wait and let a few moments pass by,
then try and look around,
who is really there?
If someone is cuz you mean something,
if someone is cuz you are special,
if someone is cuz you are beautiful,
if someone is cuz you deserve,
but,for how long?
someday,we all will wilt away,
become ashes and combine,
with the truth of life,
am not talking of death,
am not talking of loneliness,
I speak of the day turning into night,
the lava which has the fire,
but,eventually cools away,
damages done and sorted,
life lived and fulfilled,
A stagnant point,
where you need to think about yourself,
that day,you will be alone,
thinking,screaming,crying,smiling,
loving,lost,content,
a life of a temporary stand,
yes,am contradicting,
just the way life is,
the waves that carry you,
to an unimaginable place,
the earthquake which,
bring you back to reality,
live,my friends,
love,my friends,
cry,who cares,
be who you are,
let nothing hold you back,
not a person,
A god damn situation,
A feeling noone else will understand,
LIVE! for yourself,
THEN for someone else..